Baby Kyson-2+month June 7, 2009
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Toni Morrison:
‘When a child walks in the room, your child or anybody else’s child, do your eyes light up? … Let your face speak what’s in your heart. It’s just as small as that, you see.’
夏雪?!! June 6, 2009
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6月了,今天一早起来,外面竟然在下雪
!
有点冷 ,炒个韩国泡菜炒饭吧!
酸酸辣辣地…好吃!
当妈妈啦! May 30, 2009
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3个月前,我终于升级当妈妈啦! ^_^ 刚开始我对自己的这 new role 有点不惯. 表面上,好像很有信心的对自己说,当妈妈这回事嘛,应该是天生的,自然不过的事.但是,刚生下凱升的时候,有好几晚,我被他的哭声吵醒,突然从睡梦中跳起来,有好几秒,会模糊地想,咿?谁家孩子在哭啊?然后想,好像是我家的哩….咦,我当妈妈了吗?吓,我是人家的妈妈了吔???!!!然后快快去喂奶.当然,这一切的过程只不过是短短的几秒钟而已.这种现象维持了一个月左右吧.我想当时虽然自己表面上是接受了这 new role ,潜意识里还未能真正地接受. 这种现象停了几个星期后有一晚,我梦到了凱升.醒来的时候我很开心.接下来,我的梦里常常都会有他.我知道,不管是conscious或 subconscious mind里,我都真真正正地接受了这个新身份.不止接受,而且真的很喜欢.信不信由你,我在梦里看见自己的儿子都感到特别开心的. 
The world needs more Ying Ying to be a better place! December 5, 2008
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This post is written for my friend , Ying Ying, a friend who have given me faith in friendship, humanity and the goodness of being alive!
I have noticed that I became more emotional these days.The day before, I watched Charlotte’s web and balled my eyes out(even though I have read the book many times and know the story well) and then the next day I watched Music and Lyrics and laughed my butt off over the 80’s music video that Hugh Grant made.(seriously, I never knew Hugh Grant had this in him but he really surprised me,I now love him in a new way) Not that I am not like that before but I feel that my usual emotions are even more exaggerated these days. I just can’t help but wonder, my friend Ying Ying, being very emotional (I have been to movies with her and my tears/laughter are no where near her…), and don’t get me wrong I don’t mean emotional in a bad way, in fact, it is one of the best qualities I love about her the most,what will she be like when she became pregnant? The biggest flood when she cries and the biggest earth quake when she laughs? I just think the world would be a much better place with more Ying Yings around, don’t you?
15 things that change when you have a baby December 2, 2008
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1. You finally stop to smell the roses, because your baby is in your arms.
Smelling the flowers are one of my favorite thing to do in spring time.I am not sure if that will change .Well, I suppose so, with the baby in my arms…We will see.
2. Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid.
This is definitely true. I feel like my life is much more precious now,I want to be there for my child and I want to be healthy.So don’t invite me to go bungee jumping or sky diving ,my priorities have changed!
3. The sacrifices you thought you made to have a child no longer seem like sacrifices.
Because feeling that one sacrificed meaning feeling like you have loss something and having your child is no where near that.
4. You respect your body … finally.
Yes! How true is this! I can’t believe how healthy I eat these days.Before the pregnancy,I exercised regularly anyways(and still doing so) but my diet is definitely a big change. I am much more conscious about what I put in mouth for sure.
5. You respect your parents and love them in a new way.
Well, I have always have close relationships with my parents but I am relating to them in a new way for sure.I finally started to understand why they did the things that they did before that I was not too agreeable with. I finally understood where they are coming from.
6. You find that your baby’s pain feels much worse than your own.
A mother’s tear pierces your heart deeply…a conclusion that I have made after working in the pediatric ward.
7. You believe once again in the things you believed in as a child.
I don’t think I have ever loss my beliefs in the first place.
8. You lose touch with the people in your life whom you should have banished years ago.
Done that years ago.:) Got my priority straightened and it is great!(although it is impossible to completely banished these people in my life, as this is just the reality of life itself.)
9. Your heart breaks much more easily.
I have always have a fragile heart.
10. You think of someone else 234,836,178,976 times a day.
234,836,178,976 times only?
11. Every day is a surprise.
Thank goodness I love surprises!
12. Bodily functions are no longer repulsive. In fact, they please you. (Hooray for poop!)
Love is just incredible, it changes everything!
13. You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself.
I am not a mirror person, but I find myself looking at my tummy more often now, does that consider looking at the baby?
14. You become a morning person.
I am a morning person. But I am thinking that I will become a 24 hour person when the baby is born.
15. Your love becomes limitless, a superhuman power.
No wonder my parents have always appeared to be superheroes in my mind…
The Last Lecture July 30, 2008
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” last year at Carnegie Mellon. He passed away last Friday,but boy oh boy did he ever live!I wonder how many of us who is alive today can truly say that we are living our lives at this present moment?
前兆 July 27, 2008
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好久都没写了。近来实在travel得头昏脑涨。算了算车子的mileage，在这短短地六年里，我们竟走了将近２００，０００km。（火车，飞机的行程全都不包刮在内）从加拿大东部走到西，又由南至北，而且不止一遍．有时很好玩，有时很累，大多时是苦中做乐。：）不过这个月的travel应该可以破记录了，也不知走了多少，只知道，整个月都没机会回家好好休息。
其实，从小就跟着父母奔奔跑跑地。父亲的工作当时每几个月调一次，所以不到小学，我们已搬偏西马各地（印象最深刻的要数丁加奴）。直到小学三年级那年，搬到大山脚后才真正定居下来好几年。
来了加国，我的搬家生涯又开始了。加国十个省，除了纽纷兰，其他九个省我都居住过一段日子。
朋友说：哈！你这傢伙是注定要流浪的！
嗯。。。我相信因果。应该是自己前世和今生种下的因吧，才有这样的结果。（当然，因果并不是如此简单，但就不多谈了）无论如何，我想我的血液里确实流着流浪的基因吧。。。
不过最近开始觉得有点max out的感觉了。船只停泊下来前特别动荡，一个渔夫告诉我的。不知道现在这个疯狂travel的时期是否是定居下来的前兆呢？
又要上路了 May 21, 2007
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来了OKLAHOMA四个多月,再过几天就要离开了.这次回加拿大的路程我们打算经过TEXAS,NEW MEXICO,COLORADO,UTAH及MONTANA.每个州都会停下来玩一玩,大概会花上两个星期的时间左右吧,也没什么特别的行程计划.但是很期待到NEW MEXICO的TAOS PUEBLOS去.最后一站(有时间的话)则会到YELOWSTONE NATIONAL PARK去.不过最令我高兴的是好友将会从FLORIDA飞来和我们一起上路.啊!实在太开心了!
Another scene from Carlos Saura’s El Amor Brujo May 14, 2007
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Ah, one of the greatest choreography ever….Christina Hoyos, my hero,
gave a mesmerizing performance as usual.The dancers are fabulous, you
will never look at fire the same way ever again.
佛拉明哥的灵魂 May 11, 2007
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信不信由你,做为一个好的舞蹈家(这里说的是佛拉明哥,其他的舞蹈类我了解不多所以不于置评),最重要的不是技巧,而是如何于吉他手,歌手,鼓手配合然后将整首曲子的精髓自内心表现出来传达至观众的内心.大多数佛拉明哥曲子讲述的都是吉普赛人的心酸经历.有少数曲子是属于较开朗幽默的.不过如果仔细研究,这些曲子的开朗里总带着讽刺的意味,幽默呢,也总是黑色的.我个人偏爱的舞蹈家有Carmen Amaya, Matilde Coral,Christina Hoyos, Manuela Carrasco,Merche Esmeralda,Antonio Gades等.除了以故的Carmen Amaya之外(去世的时候才四十而以),他们都是老一辈的舞蹈家.虽然他们已不能应付那些年轻舞蹈家所演出的较高难度的的舞蹈动作了,不过,他们的演出总是让人看了十分感动.是多年演出的磨练,还是生活的经历?还是DUENDE? DUENDE这个字眼很难解释,我所能想到的最切贴的解释就是所谓的”有灵魂”.由于这个字眼是佛拉明哥艺人,学者等的专用字,所以DUENDE应当被释为佛拉明哥的灵魂.常见的用词有los duendes del
Flamenco, the Magic of Flamenco; tener duende, to have a certain magic.看看西班牙著名诗人Federico Garcia Lorca 在 La Teoria y Juego del Duende – The Theory and Function of Duende里怎么说:
“All through Andalusia
. . . people speak constantly of duende, and recognize it with unfailing
instinct when it appears. The wonderful flamenco singer El Lebrijano said: ‘When I sing with duende, no one can equal me.’ . . . Manuel Torres, a man with more culture in his veins than anybody I have known, when listening to Falla play his own ‘Nocturno del Genaralife,’ made his splendid pronouncement: ‘All that has dark sounds has duende.’ And there is no greater truth.
“These dark sounds are the mystery, the roots thrusting into the fertile loam known to all of us, ignored by all of us, but from which we get what is real in art. . . .
“Thus duende is a power and not a behavior, it is a struggle and not a concept. I have heard an old master guitarist say: ‘Duende is not in the throat; duende surges up from the soles of the feet.’ Which means it is not a matter of ability, but of real live form; of blood; of ancient culture; of creative action.”
在此想和大家分享 Carlos
Saura的dance Trilogy “El Amor Brujo” aka “A Love Bewitched”一段由 Antonio Gades 和 Cristina Hoyos演出的精彩舞蹈片断.
